I'm bored.

I basically have nothing to do except for internet and eat. I have to study for a test later too. :l ugh.

Prince Henry

He is such a prince charming in my very own fairytale. He is a very nice and loving brother, not to mention he is so cool as heck! His smile is drop-dead gorgeous and the way he looks is just pure innocent and very attractive! Just look at this guy:

I am so mad.

I cleared my history just in case my parents check it out someday. But then it totally made me mad because it won't let me remember the past websites I go to. I don't even remember my favorite tumblr urls. Ugh, seriously, what a bad mistake. And then I went to the history and checked if there's still stuffs left and none was there, and I saw that you can just delete stuffs that you wish to delete. Wow, I should have known that earlier. ;'(

Weird coincidence.

So I posted this in my fashion blog yesterday:

"I wish he would just disappear so that it would be easier to move on."

And guess what? I didn't see him today! He wasn't at school at all. It's just a weird coincidence that he would actually disappear the next day after I posted that in my blog. (What if he knows my blog and read it? Because I provided the link before in my facebook - sucks, I know.) This totally gave me a weird feeling and it's kinda funny at the same time, haha. This makes me wanna miss him but I have to move on! Dammit'!

Birthday Galore

My outfit when I went to the Stockton Sushi Buffet on April 24, 2011 (a day before my 16th birthday.) I got the dress at Abercrombie & Fitch. I'm quite surprised it still fits me considering I bought it last year and it's size small!  I bought the sandals at icing. It was on sale - 2 for $12. It was a good deal so I have to buy it! The other one looks cute too, much colorful and lovely. =)

 The sushis were totally to-die-for! They tasted soooo good, nom nom nom! They were placed on boat plates and they were rotating in the main table so I just have to grab some. I like the ones with the avocado, shrimp, and crap paste the most!

My mom surprised me when I got home. She gave me a Kodak Zi8 Pocket Video Camera. I totally love it! It's reddish-pink, too! =) It's very handy and kinda easy to use. This little thing save my group project for filming Act 5 of Julius Caesar. The quality is very cool since it's in HD. Totally lovin' it. I will be making song covers with this baby soon. ~

New nail polish!

Since March, I've been currently obsessing with nail polish! It's weird, haha. It probably started when Ate Paula painted my nails at my Aunt's Maddle's house. It was a Sephora light purple nail polish and it was a real quality and lovely! I had it for about 3 weeks (yeap, it stayed that long!) And then I started painting my nails with other colors, like purple w/ glitter, hot pink w/ glitter, green & gold, and now the most recent one: a neon color, lime green!

My friend Sharlene painted my nails during 2nd period in my Spanish class on Friday. She did it while Mr. Faukner's talking about something I forgot and while we were watching an episode of  "La Catrina". Sharlene is so awesome! I'm totally loving this nail polish color and it brings brightness in my nails. I'm quite sad it is starting to peel. I think this one is cheap but cute though so I don't really mind. <3

Quick Info.

I made this blogspot since April 2008, and didn't know how to use it back then so I didn't post anything and forget the fact that I have this account. And then I started discovering this site again this May of 2011, so tada, I started posting! I realized this is much better than tumblr to vent & express more things; hence, this is called my "personal blog". :D

New Template [Black & White w/ Gold]

I made the header using my polyvore account, haha. :D So yeah, new template. Like I said in my other post, I would change the look of my blog. The other one (the blue one) was kinda too girly so I had to change it quickly. I like this one better since it's simple yet pleasing to look at, well, at least for me! :)

Oreo

This is Oreo, my sister's dog. My sister bought him for $100+ when he was only 2-3 weeks old. He was so adorable and used to have blue eyes, but now his eyes turned into boring brown, lol. He is so fluffy and just adorable. I like cuddling him, esp. when I am sad. He sleeps with me in my bed, and he often dominates the bed because he sleeps in the center! 

He likes the camera! He is such a cam-whore, I'm not even kidding! Everytime I would say like "Oreo, look here, Imma take a picture" he then would look. He usually smiles, but I think he's a bad mood here (?).

 After he takes a bath, he would look like this. He looks messy but I still think he is so freaking cute! Haha, I love this doggy so much!

His favorite teddy bear! This teddy bear looks like shit now because it is so dirty and marks all over the poor bear. What can I say? This little boy also loves toys!

How did 5/9/11 went for me?

I woke up at about 7 AM and went back to sleep until 7:10. I got ready and changed into my outfit: yellow flowy tank top, black leggings, and my flipflops that has these cute, colorful flower beads. For breakfast I ate tocino, which I've been craving for since who knows when! Then I went to school, ugh. When I got to school, I directly went to my locker room, as always. And then I met Denni. I gave her the left-over candies from the Info Fair. And then when the bell rang, Denni walked me into my 1st period class, and then I saw Brennan. I didn't see if he was looking, but I did see that his head kinda moved towards the direction I was located. Anyways, Algebra 2 was alright. Test tomorrow though, so I have to study like hecka tonight. :'( And then I saw him again (as usual) and headed to my locker. I then went to my 2nd period Spanish class. It was boring, we just listened to my teacher's Monday news & jot down new vocab words. And then 3rd period came. It was okay, Natalie & I dissected the head of the frog. The smell totally turns me OFF. Ugh, disgusting, but Natalie did the most work so it's all good. :D And we smashed the brain accidentally, haha. And after we cut the eyeball from its place, I poked them with my two fingers, so technically, my 2 fingers acted as the eyes, haha. And Natalie saw me so she did it too. And she showed it to the class and my teacher. Damn, so they all laughed at her for being so silly and smart like that. But it was all my idea so she should have given me the credit, haahahah. We didn't do anything in 4th and then we went to lunch. As I headed toward the cafeteria, Junior Dude's friends started looking at me. It was embarrassing yet cute. :3 And then we went to our normal hangout place, near the drama room. And then I saw him passed by. I didn't get the look he was giving. He turned around and looked at me for a good amount of at least 5 seconds and walked away. And then when he wasn't looking, I gave him a nasty look. Serves him right for breaking my heart. And then 6 & 7th went on. And then I didn't walk Nicole so I didn't pass by him, but I did saw him and saw him staring at me again. Ugh, that's school for today. And then when I went home, I ate the beef stew, which was good & headed off to study for the math test tomorrow. And now I'm here. (Adnd ummm, yeah I have to do listen to my dad's complains about his sleepers missin and they ended up under my bed. ;(

Tube Top + Skirt

I made this in my polyvore last night. Can't wait til I'm old & sexy enough to wear these outfits! I am in love with matching tank tops or tube tops with cute skirts. The heels are definitely a plus! They're very gorgeous, but since I haven't worn high heels for such a long time, I would probably fall so nevermind, haha. I like the 2nd one since it's simple yet very classy and lovely. The first one is more of casual and rocker chic, while the 3rd one is more elegant that suits well for parties. When I get a job, I'll definitely be looking for items that matches the ones above. :D

Meet my twin.

Hey guys, this is my twin, Kazi. Don't we look cute? Lol, I am kidding. I took bunch of pictures and just cropped them together using the power of paint. I like the second one a lot since it looks more real, and my amazing editing (haha, cocky much?) enhance the appearance of the photos together. I better download photoshop so it would be much much better next time!

My Dream Room Furnitures

Seriously, it may be impossible but I reallly really love these furnitures! They're very classy and princess-sy like. :P When I'm finally responsible enough to move out from my home sweet home into my own apartment or condo someday, I would love to have these in my room! I love designing and arranging stuffs, hahahaha. :)

Cute Fashion Outfits

I am in the midst of changing my fashion style! I used to wear just skinny jeans, t-shirt, and flip-flops or boots, but now I feel like wearing something cute, sexy, and elegant at the same time. When I said "sexy" I didn't mean to be slutty and all. I have stretch marks all over my thighs and it's spreading in my legs, and I freaking hate it so so so much! Ugh, I seriously need to take into consideration what my mom said about rubbing baby oil in the areas I have those. Anyway, since it's spring and it's a month away til summer starts, I feel like wearing more dresses and shorts and tank tops.

The dress ^ is so adorable. I am a total lover of floral designs so the dress totally caught my attention. The purse is pretty, too. I feel like using handbags than totes. Next year, I will probably switch my pink Aeropostale tote bag, which I had since my Freshman year, into a kinda big handbag that will fit my stuffs in. Totally craving for this outfit. <3

This outfit is totally a to-die-for. I mean seriously, it's so cute and just purely elegant and pretty. The skirt is too pleasing to look at. The top is so unique and different from what I usually wear, but I'm totally digging it. The satchel is adorbz too, even though you can barely see it. I am definitely gonna try my best to find clothes similar to the ones above and see if I can rock it. :P 

Now this is what I am talking about. Plaid button-up shirts (blue cuz it's my favorite color) and shorts plus this beautiful bracelet and bag are absolutely my faves. I wanna wear something like this beofre school ends and of course, during summer.

Brennan, it's over.

Apparently, his "girlfriend Casey" posted in his wall using his account.

Ahh Brennan(: I love hanging out with you at my place by the lake:) good times. Well I love you baby and I can't wait to see you again. O4.O4.2k11 = ). 
-Casey

When I read it the first time, my heart stopped. It felt like bullets went through my heart one by one. It felt like all my high hopes went down flat on the ground. It felt like I was rejected, broken up with, and just ignored. I know I don't have the rights to get mad since I don't even know if he truly likes me and he's not even my boyfriend, but he made me like him up to the point that it will be almost a year! And now he gave me this broken heart. I should have known he had a girlfriend. He's very cute and he seemed sweet, but I won't believe it. I should just give up in the very first place. I'm just stupid for falling in love with him. And now my heart's shattered into several pieces. I cried, I must say. It's the first time I cried because of the guy I like, why? Because it totally broke my heart so much I just couldn't hold the truth that he's taken by someone. But why? WHY? He has given me so many signs of liking me. And all of those meant nothing? Really? I was a total fool for him. I did my best to make him like me, but it won't just work. I'm quite relief that I didn't message him on facebook or talk to him, or else I would have been embarrass forever. If I messaged him, his girlfriend would have read it, and it would be a huge trouble. But still, I am so sad and mad. It's too much. It would be hard to get over him. I thought it was God's plan for me to meet him. He brought him into my life, but all he did was make me jealous, make me like him, and expects me to believe that he likes me even though he really doesn't. His mixed signals were bullshit. I fucking hate him so much for fucking make me like him so much that I fell in love with him accidentally, not even knowing if he really likes me. It's too much pain. There's too much pain in my heart, and it's because of him. I should have stopped liking him ever since then. It is no wonder why he had a picture of him with "04.04.2k11" written in his hands and "I <3 U" written in his arm. I knew there was something going on when he posted that pic, but I was so stupid and did not believe it, and now look at me, I'm a foolish hopeless romantic. I'll never have a boyfriend, and I'll never have him. I guess everything was just a dream. Everything he showed wasn't real. He wasn't into me afterall. :'(

But why...........................................................?

• You look at me, stare at me, and look for me.
• You go wherever I go, like in the library oneday.
• You look back at me when I passed by you.
• You go weird when I walk passed by you.
• Your friend said "ooooo" when you passed by our group.
• and much more.

TDAP Shot!

Yesterday and earlier this morning, I was totally freaking out since I'm so scared that the shot would hurt so much, but it did not! It just stings a little bit now though. :'( When the doctor injected me, it felt like a led poking me so it didn't hurt, and it was very quick! AThe only thing I hate is the "waiting time" since the line was soooooo long and there were so many people. Thanks goodness there were cute guys in the line so it was kinda okay, but then again, I didn't talk to them. :'(

Black & Gray

Very classy and cute outfit that I am totally digging as of the moment. I am currently obsessed with black and gray together. I don't know why but they just go along well together. I barely have black & gray clothes so I better buy some. (And oh, the headband is so freaking adorable. I must get one!)

New look for my blogspot!

Blue and cute in combination. :) Totally loving the color scheme and how my blog looks right now. :) I will probably change it a soon as possible since it looks very very plain and cutesy, hahaaha.

Butterflies in my stomach.

I like how Brennan's group move closer to my group! It's as if he wants to be closer to me or something. :) Like 2 days ago, him and his friends passed by behind me, and I heard "ooooooooooo" like a teasing sound from one of his friends. My friends heard it too. I thought it was kinda cute, and he was probably embarrass.

And everytime I walk my friend Nicole to the front gate, I would always pass by him! I get nervous and hella shy, and I can't even look straight in his face! :'( Like yesterday, I passed by him while I'm talking to Nicole, and I was like "I'm nervous for the Info Fair, it feels like I have butterflies in my stomach." And I was saying that while my hand was in my stomach, and he saw that! I was so embarrass, but I hope he thinks that was cute, hahaahaha. And today, I passed by him too! It was awkward this time. It was like time stopped for few seconds because it felt like a slow motion event. I can't even explain it but as I passed by him, it made it so obvious that I like him and I was looking forward on seeing him. Time just stopped, and it felt like a dream or something, lol. And afterwards Angela and I went to my locker to get my book, and what's good is that we were walking kinda behind him. Angela thinks he has a flat butt, but since he was wearing a saggy pants, you can't really tell. But I don't really care, lol. He is still cute. :3

Getting over somebody you like is hard.

I thought I'm over Brennan after I heard the news my friend told me, but I guess not! I keep seeing his face everywhere. He's been appearing so many times right in front of my face and his gorgeous-looking baby face is just too cute to resist! He's killing me. I hate the fact that I still like him. When is he going to man up? I like him. End of the story.

Craving for pumps!

So I haven't worn pumps or any high heels before (with an exception of few elegant occassions I've been to, like weddings). However, I've been seeing a lot of photos of girls wearing cute pumps, and so I told myself that I should consider wearing some too! They're gorgeous and just so cool!

Although it may feel uncomfortable for me, it still looks lovely! For a first-timer like myself, it should take some time to get use to it. But once I master walking on heels, I'll definitely wear them and rock my way everywhere with these babies! :3

Outfit #1

My outfit a long time ago (I really don't remember.) I like this outfit a lot! I haven't worn it in the public view before though. I'm still convincing myself that I should. As you all know, I am a total fashion freak. I totally love this picture except for the background. My parent's bedroom looked like a mess in here! Oh my!

• The dress is from Abercrombie & Fitch. And heavens know how much this costs! My brother got it for me as a present last Christmas. I totally love it! It's a really cute dress. 
• I got the necklace at icing! I love flowers and this necklace is just purely lovely! It's black/grey and it totally goes along my outfits! Although it costs almost $12, it's definitely worth it.
• I got my cardigan at Forever 21 with my own money! I was debating whether I should get the pink one or this blue one, but obviously, I chose this, haha!

My ruined love life.

I am devastated when my friend Angela told me that Brennan had an ex and already had his first kiss with this girl, which is a friend of Angela and Kath. When I heard the news, it felt as if a bullet went through my heart. It was so sad. :'(

I made a blogspot.

Tumblr is pretty much fun, but I really wanted to make a real blog; therefore, I made this blog. I named it "So Kazilicious" since I will mostly post stuff that I currently crave for as well as my personal life happenings. I hope you will be able to get to know me better through this blog. Thanks for visiting, lovely! :)